Like I mentioned… it’s been a really rough couple of months…
The last week of May, I received another last minute e-mail requesting me to attend a meeting that afternoon with my boss, Jackie*. In this meeting, I received my third and final write up. This time I was written up for being a minute or two late (based on the time I signed in to my computer… so technically, I was actually there on time, I just didn’t sign it to my computer early enough) and not texting or calling Jackie* to let her know that I was going to be “late”.
I was told that if I was written up again, I would be terminated. I was also told that I would need to take two online professional development classes… to be done before the last week of June.
I did the training, and everything was quiet and status quo for several months…
But as of August 23rd, I am no longer working for that University.
The day started off like any other day. I got to work at 8 AM. I had a very productive morning. I worked through my lunch, as I almost always did (whether I needed to flex through my lunch or not) and shortly after lunch, I received a last-minute meeting invitation for that afternoon at 3:00 PM with my boss, Jackie*.
Immediately, I had a feeling that my day was about to take a drastic turn…
When I received that last-minute meeting invitation on August 23rd, I had a feeling that I was being terminated. I was so confident that was the case, that I texted my dad to let him know that I had once again received a last-minute meeting invitation and asked if he could make his schedule flexible at that time so that if the meeting was what I thought it was, he would be available to help me pack up my things…
Now, don’t get me wrong, I remained hopeful that I was not going to be terminated… that I was being paranoid because of my anxiety…
But unfortunately, that was not the case.
I walked into that meeting and was informed that I was being terminated for listening to podcasts while working.
Yes you did read that right. For listening to podcasts 1 wireless bluetooth headphone in while working. While others around me played music that wasn’t always work appropriate on the sound bar on their computer, disturbing those around them.
I had received my final strike. I was told I could either choose to resign in lieu of termination or I would be terminated.
If I resigned, I would receive two weeks of severance pay, all the vacation that I had accrued (81 hours), they would not fight any unemployment application should I apply, but I would lose the right to fight my termination and I cannot be hired back at the university for another three years (which is just policy. If you are terminated for ANY reason, for example missing too much work due to a disability, then you cannot be hired back for another three years).
If I took the termination, I would lose all of that, still not be able to be hired back for 3 years, but I would be able to fight the termination.
I chose to resign and take the month paid off.
But here’s the thing… I worked at the university for roughly 3 years and six months before I received a single write up… Then all of a sudden my behavior becomes a problem and I am written up for things that I have literally been doing for years without so much as a word… Minor things mind you. Even more odd… these write ups started right around the time that I started having neurological episodes that we are calling seizures** at work. And 8 days before I was terminated, I had two seizures in one day at work. I just can’t help but wonder… You know?
A week after I resigned, I reactivated and updated my care.com profile. Over the next few days, half a dozen families messaged me to see if I was available. I interviewed with two of them last week and accepted a full time position with one of them on Friday of last week. I will start on Monday, September 30th.
I truly can’t wait! I have always loved working with on a more individual basis with kids. I loved being a nanny and I am truly excited to get back to it!
When one door closes, another door opens.
names have been changed for privacy
During these episodes my world is in slow motion and even though I can hear what others around me are saying, my brain is operating so slowly, I can’t process what is being said… I’m basically catatonic, conscious but not there. But sometimes I will also lose consciousness. We also know my heart rate falls into the low 40’s mid 30’s (normal is 60-70’s). These episodes can last anywhere from 15 minutes to more than an hour long from start to finish, but I never know how long they last unless I am with someone who is aware that the episode is happening.